It's been a month since I opened this account to release some thoughts. I always try doing this to make my mind a bit clearer. There are lots of things going on inside that small room. I want to shout but I don't want anyone to hear me. I'm thinking of bursting everything out but leaving no mess. That would be impossible. As they say, at least a pair of eyes is on me.
It's 2:00 a.m. I don't know what keeps me up at this time. Maybe, it has been a routine for me to sleep so late or none at all. I was so busy these days. I've been doing 'extraordinary' things. But now, I realized I want to stay doing 'ordinary' things - doing those routines like getting up in the morning, going to school, doing some assignments or other related stuffs, going home, then having some rest. I miss doing that. Just that.
Priority setting. Priorities - they're all piled up. Everything wants to be the priority. Everything has to be prioritized. I have no choice but to do them one by one, considering their 'importance and urgency'. After all of these, I'll just look on the brighter side of it. I can say I've experienced these things as early as now. The director of a play I once made said to me, "If you want to do good in acting, you have to gather much experiences as early as possible." Well, I'm not really after that acting thing but experience would really help on any aspect.
Maybe it's over now. It is. But not really. It's so vague. And it had been this way ever since. It started like a blurred piece of painting, and left undone. Or a movie with all the suspense sequences then ended up like someone just turned off the DVD player. Then, you'd realize the movie was really just that short. I guess it will be like this forever. No more space nor ellipses though it's really incomplete. No substance nor any essence at all.
Maybe everything will just fall back to their original position. Wishful thinking. I just wish these things to subside. Please, leave me for a while. I don't need them. I already realized things. Or maybe, it has to be this way forever.
It's 2:00 a.m. I don't know what keeps me up at this time. Maybe, it has been a routine for me to sleep so late or none at all. I was so busy these days. I've been doing 'extraordinary' things. But now, I realized I want to stay doing 'ordinary' things - doing those routines like getting up in the morning, going to school, doing some assignments or other related stuffs, going home, then having some rest. I miss doing that. Just that.
Priority setting. Priorities - they're all piled up. Everything wants to be the priority. Everything has to be prioritized. I have no choice but to do them one by one, considering their 'importance and urgency'. After all of these, I'll just look on the brighter side of it. I can say I've experienced these things as early as now. The director of a play I once made said to me, "If you want to do good in acting, you have to gather much experiences as early as possible." Well, I'm not really after that acting thing but experience would really help on any aspect.
Maybe it's over now. It is. But not really. It's so vague. And it had been this way ever since. It started like a blurred piece of painting, and left undone. Or a movie with all the suspense sequences then ended up like someone just turned off the DVD player. Then, you'd realize the movie was really just that short. I guess it will be like this forever. No more space nor ellipses though it's really incomplete. No substance nor any essence at all.
Maybe everything will just fall back to their original position. Wishful thinking. I just wish these things to subside. Please, leave me for a while. I don't need them. I already realized things. Or maybe, it has to be this way forever.
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Everything's going to be okay. :)
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