PERIHELION on its Profound Success

At last, an idea of mine was concretized and shown to the public. I have been dreaming of this since I was a lot younger. Most of the times, I try to squeeze my brain just to get juices of every idea I want to have. Now, I can say my "Perihelion" is a success - if not to others, at least on my own.

I really don't know why. We went home with nothing. We just went there to see everybody get what we dreamed to have. Tsubibo Uno worked hard on this. At least, an award would make us feel that we succeeded to entertain everyone right then and there. But that's life. The story, the blocking, the lights and the music, the characters, the acting, the direction - what else should be blamed?

After all these failure thingees, all I can blame is myself. The director should do this, the director should be like that. Haaaay. I think I failed to comply with the standards of the theater, with the norms of the experts. I kept on thinking... I should have followed no one but myself. I should have been more strict. I should have blinded myself with all that I was feeling that time. I should have considered nobody but myself. I should have been more of a dictator if I really want the prize.

"I cannot give you the formula for success, but I can give you the formula for failure: which is: Try to please everybody."

-Herbert B. Swope

We were so close that time. We had three major productions and our minds were not working with its normal state. All we had those time to keep moving was to enjoy what we were doing. As usual, I tried to squeeze my mind to think of better blocking, better twists, better characterization, in short, a better ME.

All I really wanted was the best for Perihelion - and for the Tsubibo Uno. Also, I wanted Teatro to be proud of me because I applied to Perihelion what I've learned from them. But it's all finished. I'll just move on from this failure and try to recover by doing something again. At least, I'm not afraid of trying again.

"Failure is instructive. The person who really thinks learns quite as much from his failures as from his successes."

-John Dewey

I just want to thank Tsubibo Uno for trusting me. Thank you for not cursing me when we lost. Haha. I was touched when I saw some of us cried. That's how we love Perihelion. It's not just a stage play for us. Thank you very much... To our Production Manager, Dah; to the Assistant Prod. Manager, Allison; to Charm, our Stage Manager; to all the committee heads; and most especially to my five wonderful actors (naks!!) - Marian, Carla, Jamie, Kael, and RJ. Thank you for realizing my dreams to be a stage director even for once. And also, to Ma'am Tin Viray, our adviser. God bless us all! It's not yet the end of Perihelion. It's just starting to affect our lives.

"Hindi lahat ng mag anda sa paningin ay kaayaayang maituturing. Hindi lahat ng may kapangyarihan ay mabuti. Hindi lahat ng iyong nakikita ang nakikita din ng iba. Hindi lahat ay totoo, hindi lahat ay tao. Huwag mainip. May kasagutan.
Tik. Tak. Hindi maiaalis o maipagwawalang bahala ang mga kabuktutan ng buhay, mga pagsubok na kinahaharap ng tao, mga salot na inililimbag ng lipunan, mga sumpang ibinabato ng kalikasan. Ang paraan kung paano ito nilalagpasan ng bawat nilalang ay iba-iba. Dahil may iba-iba ding panghuhusga ang mundo sa kanila. Tila wala ngang mahinusay sa isang mundong puro pagkukubli. Wala ngang aangat kung ang lahat ng iba’y hahatakin ka pailalim. Subalit marapat lang ba na ang isa ay magpabihag sa saligang ang nagtakda ay mga nilalang na nababalot din ng kasinungalingan. Huwag mainip. May kasagutan.
Tik. Tak. Tik. Hindi kailangan matakot. Hindi kailangan magpanggap. Hindi kailangang magtago. Hindi kailangang mahiya. Kailangan lang magpakatotoo. Kailangan lang maging matapang. Kailangan lang aminin sa mundo ang mga pagkakamali. Kailangan lang humingi ng tawad. Kailangan din magpatawad. Huwag mainip. May kasagutan.
Tik. Tak. Tik. Tak. Hindi dapat magpabihag sa mga kasawian natin. Dahil sa pag-ikot ng mundo, umiikot din tayo. Hindi nga ba ang mga kapighatian ang nagbibigay anghang sa buhay. At pagkatapos nito ang tamis ng kalayaan mula sa pagkakagapos. Hindi ba’t pagkatapos ng bagyo ay nagliliwanag nang muli. Kailangan lang maghintay. Kailangan lang umasa. Kung hanggang kailan, tila walang may alam. Dahil hindi habambuhay nasa isang numero lang ang orasan. Huwag mainip. May kasagutan.
Tik. Tak. Tik. Tak. Tik. Hindi na dapat maglaliguy-ligoy. Malapit na. paparating na. ilang tiktak nalang ay masasaksihan na ang katugunan. Ang liwanag. Ang propesiya. Ang PERIHELION. Ang katuparan. Ang katapusan. Maddiwang. Huwag mainip. May kasagutan.
Tik. Tak. Tik. Tak. Tik. Tak. Tik. Tak. Tik. Tak. Tik. Tak. Tik. Tak. Tik. Tak."

-Mariel Balitao, Publicity and Promotions Head